Quest for life

Where you come from, tells you where you are going.

Everything happens for reasons at determined moments. Predestined.

The other day someone asked me what their career was. By only studying the chart I came up with the correct answer what their career & job is. For another person to read is easier than reading for oneself. As ego and emotions are involved which can disturb the picture and also sometimes you don't wanna see, know and feel things, simply because they're causing emotional disturbance. Reading for myself opens up Pandora's box. Besides learned knowledge, my intuition functions as an antenna and energy from the astral realm gives me sometimes the chills as well as incredible magical highs. But being in this 'open' state for the past years where my life was like 'Villa Volta', I needed to close my 6th sense for a while as information was too overwhelming and I needed time to recuperate and recover from the bumpy roller coaster I've been in (and still am). 

Slowly coming back to reality I am puzzled by how life turns out. Looking backwards, realizing time of life just flew by, looking forwards knowing half of it passed by in an instant. A melancholic state. Much realizations and mentally ocupied with my mortality and mortal state. At the time I am writing this, the Moon is in Scorpio and entering my 12th house. Something with death and transformation, no wonder I feel in this state.

That 12th house of mine is my dreaded house. Knowing through the veil. Tapping into the astral realms. That realm brings me always back to my roots. 
My roots anchor in the house of Aries. My Sun resides there. On its own, swirling around without any feedback from other planets. Came into this life to heal the wound of self with the task to create a home, not only the bricks and mortar, but the creation of safety, shelter, warmth and love. 

It isn't always about this life. As silly as it may sound. It carries the manifested shadows from previous life's. That shadow I know, only the shadow, not the details, not the events. It's a vague memory of past energy.

Today the world changes.
Change will be the only constant says ancient Greek philosopher Heraclicus. It is not the strongest of the species who survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change, says Charles Darwin.
Let that be the mantra for the upcoming years.

Let's look at the outer generational planets what they are doing today. Pluto in Aquarius is settling in, it's power to the people, to humanity. To gain back power it causes revolution, rebellion. Pluto's ways are destructive as on dirty grounds nothing can grow. The ultimate goal is freedom, independence, being who you are and who you want to be. Aquarius is fixed air. 'Harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding. No more falsehoods or derisions, golden living dreams of visions, mystic chrystal revelations and the minds true liberation' 

Uranus is at the final degrees of Taurus and we're in a climate crisis, have agriculture problems due to govermental restraints & regulations, where it's more and more difficult for farmers to farm. Neptune is at the final degrees of Pisces where there are a lot of floods and weather irregularities. As well we are are facing gas supply issues due to political restraints & games and fact and fiction is intersecting. 
The karmic nodes are about to change to the Pisces/Virgo axis.

Let's go back in time, 85 years. Europe 1940.

Pluto enters Leo, can we translate that as power to the leaders and power to authority? Those who thrive on stage and would like to be seen in the spotlight, where selve expression entails a flair of drama? Leo is fixed fire. Uranus is in the 3rd decanate of Taurus at that time. Neptune is at the 3rd decanate of Virgo.
The karmic nodes are in the Libra/Aries axis.

What do we see here? What coincides today with 85 years ago? Do you see it?

Pluto is currently in exact opposition of the ingress of Pluto in Leo when in the Netherlands WOII started in 1940. Uranus is at the same decanate in Taurus and having it's return now. Neptune is in the 3rd decanate of Virgo, opposite where Neptune is now in Pisces. 
The karmic nodes are moving away from Aries/Libra.

So we are dealing with a Pluto opposite Leo/Aquarius, Neptune opposite Virgo/Pisces and a Uranus return if we bring these 2 momentums together. 
What this tells me, without going into detail of the explanation of the archetypes, I see an evolutionary perspective of opposites where the outcome is that a balance (karma) is needed to be played out.

Libra wants peace, even if it means war. Neptune creates chaos to destabilize order. Aquarius wants freedom, independence and liberation from authority.
In the midst there is the eye of the storm, the silence and the gem where the opposites are meant to blend together.

We're crumbling down from what Pluto in Capricorn established: status, money, wealth and what our governments subscribed. As the costs are to high, as our homes where dictated to work, work, work which took it's tole on our own nourishment and care for our families. What we didn't see at the time, we start to see now. That there is still no equality, that we're taken by surprise and advantage, that we still discriminate, to name a few. As long as greed is stronger than compassion, there will always be suffering. 

5 Years ago I had out of the blue panic attacks. Little did I know that it was a warning of what was about to come. A few months later we where in a pandemic and the pieces of the puzzle fell together.

Beginning December 2024 the New Moon in Sagittarius was exact on my ascendant. I had terrible nightmares. I got panic attacks and got sick. I have an ascendant of 8°, Scorpio degree and maybe influenced by Antares (military star, eye of Scorpio) whilst not being paran the ecliptic, who knows. An Neptune in Sag in 12th house Scorpio is my blessing as well as a curse. 
My ascendant trines exactly my Chiron/IC in Aries. I am a 4th house Aries Sun.
The transit of the north node in Aries just passed my Chiron at the IC. Mars, ruler of Aries/planet of a.o. war was transitting in retrograde motion at 7° Leo in my 8th house, making the fiery trine complete. At this degree I have my Akashi asteroid in my chart.

In the past year I have been studying my grandparents and parents charts. My grandparents are generation Pluto in Cancer, born in WOI and lived through WOII. My parents are generation Pluto in Leo, born in WOII. My 8th house cusp starts at Cancer Sirius fixed star 14° and runs till 29°Leo. What I discovered is that their charts lead to my Leo placements, by fiery trines where the karmic nodes, Lilith and other placements are significant to my own Vesta, Lilith and Akashic point in Leo. This is remarkable.

My Chiron at the IC carries a lot of ancestral karmic energy. My full life embeds with a feeling of experiencing a war I have never lived through, WOII. My full life I experience deep wounds about loss, betrayal, abandonment, rejection. A full life I experience nightmares of war. A pattern what caused a 'why' and a deep dive into it. And now I am here. It feels as judgement day has come. (Sorry for the fatalistic expression). Maybe it's better to call it D-day.

The world artived at the stage of a turnaround. Neptune will enter Aries, Saturn will follow. The Nodal axis change from Aries/Libra into Pisces/Virgo. On my way to a nodal return. Uranus will change into Gemini later this year, Jupiter moves into Cancer.

Coming from earth & water into fire & air.

FEAR: False Evidence Appearing Real.
Hopefully my Neptune is only playing tricks on me from the past (life) with it's inconjunction to my Sun. That I do feel the pain, trauma, destruction, suppresion and fears from my family who went before me. I have this yod in my chart solving these issues by reliving and releasing these energies. 
But this is not my war, my circus, nor my monkeys.

I've been through that before and made a pact in the early 80's where I had the same nightmares where the news was terrifying about the cold war and the threat of a nuclear attack. The karmic north node was in Aries, same as today.
A pact that when my mother said: you will never experience that in your life. That pact cannot be broken as I need to make a promise to my child and this generation. Now scroll to the top and watch the magic sky, where the Moon at 0° Pisces is making a perfect bright conjunction with evening star Venus at the same degree.
I close as my daughter would say: 'Peace out✌️Tarzan'

Was it Churchill, Roosevelt, Stalin, Hitler?
Reagan, Gorbatsjov, Thatcher?
Or Is it Putin, Zelensky, Trump to name a few?

The first 7 are gone. That zeitgeist is over. If we could ask them, what would they answer on the question: 'Was it worth it'?

It is time to stop repeating the circle of destruction in the history of humanity. 

Listen without judgement. Care without prejudice. 

Where are our roots? What are our dreams?
How can we make peace with the past, let go of control and create a better future?

Song: Genesis: Land of confusion

Let these lyrics sink in:

I must have dreamed a thousand dreams
Been haunted by a million screams
But I can hear the marching feet
They're moving into the street

Now, did you read the news today?
They say the danger has gone away
But I can see the fire's still alight
They're burning into the night

There's too many men, too many people
Making too many problems
And there's not much love to go around
Can't you see this is the land of confusion?

This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

Oh, Superman, where are you now?
When every thing's gone wrong somehow?
Men of steel, these men of power
I'm losing control by the hour

This is the time, this is the place
So we look for the future
But there's not much love to go around
Tell me why this is the land of confusion

This is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth living in

I remember long ago
When the sun was shining
And all the stars were bright all through the night
In the wake up this madness, as I held you tight
So long ago

I won't be coming home tonight
My generation will put it right
We're not just making promises
That we know we'll never keep

There's too many men, too many people
Making too many problems
And there's not much love to go around
Can't you see this is the land of confusion?

Now, this is the world we live in
And these are the hands we're given
Use them and let's start trying
To make it a place worth fighting for

This is the world we live in
And these are the names we're given
Stand up and let's start showing
Just where our lives are going to

Stay possitive in this negative situation.

'My generation will put it right'

Yours sincerely,

Just an Gen-X'er.